"Is this how it should feel?” “Being an adult?”
“If you’re waiting for anxiety and fear and self-doubt to go away, you’re going to wait forever.” - excerpt from interview with Matt Berringer & his brother. [ find it herehttp://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2014/03/31/pep-talk-2 ] I relate a lot to Tom in this conversation, feeling late to the game, and lacking self defining titles. The word documentarian came to mind recently, and after a Google search to clarify the words existence, I decided I like the idea of that; writing, taking pictures, filming and telling stories. I'm writing this in the car, from the road with musician friends Betty & Oswald. I've spent half the week viewing everything through a lens, and most of the rest of it through a car window. I've been trying to figure out how to work toward spending my life doing what I love. In the meantime I want to document as much as possible, in search of what feels important. I've been hosted by strangers, shared half my dinner with a dog who belonged to no one, and talked into the night sitting in the gutter with an old friend, answering questions with questions reaching no conclusions but both finding resolution in feeling understood.